Life Isnt What U Think.....Friday, October 26, 20077:32PM - And you stab yourself in the back, EVERYBODY JUST RELAX! oooooo boy i have fucked up, i pritty much had the pirfict girl tusted in my lap and i just went and fucked it up. this girl was the hottist girl that has ever taken intrested in me...we were hangin out/seeing eachother for like 3 weeks. i donno i guess i was scard when u said it, i fliped out and snaped i feel bad for the things i said. but the crew warnd u about this i think they said hey dont get to cufable/invaled with jp cuz there somthing worng with him in that aspect, we donno what it is cuz he wont talk about it. iam a good friend iam just not boyfriend grade. yr not the only gril in my life right now, iam just a really shity pirson right now...i like u i really do i just cant stop this right know.
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Monday, September 10, 20079:20PM - We walk along, but never turn to see what we have done.well i think its officel iam moving to royal oak, iam so excided about it iam goin in friday to go see the place. i think iam going to pick up a secont job just to make things work better, cuz i dont ever want to come back to rochester i really do hate it here i just feel like its the same old story in this fuckin palce. i think i will be a more happy person out there, i can start fresh start over thats all i want , i have a lot of friends out there and just the fact that i can live by myself is fuckin awsome. my parens r afraded that iam never going to come home i told them that i would but to be honisted the less i have to come back here the better. Current mood:  blah
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Monday, August 27, 200710:01PMso yea i went to my bor show out in good old romeo, it was pritty sweet i really had a good time. but i will tell u he has really come a long way with bands they sounded really good, i think they might go pritty far with this one. Current mood:  calm
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Sunday, August 26, 200710:05PMi really cant help people out anymore, i feel like everyone wants a peace of me and i just cant handle it anymore, the only one i want to help out is u i dont know y but i anyways feel like its right... Current mood:  anxious
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12:10AM - i'll taer my heart out and ask for seconsso yea i guess iam really just not worth it to anyone anymore, i feel so fucking used somtimes, i feel like iam everyones eamotional bandaid anymore that everyone thinks that i have all the anserws or somthing fuck that i dont have shit to tell u people. but what really sucks about all this is everyone wants me to save them but no one had yet stood up and saved me. u know dude thats really messed up when we r hanging out and shit and she calls u and u get off the phone and r just like iam taking u home we had even been hanging out for like a hafe hr but whatever pussy calls and the yr like peace out fuck this this i just want to disapier where no one can suck me dry of my thoughs anymore, but i guess that gose along with gods hate for me, i swear i would rather go to hell at this point. Current mood:  annoyed
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Friday, August 3, 20071:30AMi though a lot about what we talked about the other night, iam really willing to try at this, but i need some hard core pacents from u yr going to be fustaded at times but i can just say keep trying, u kno i will always have yr back that will never change u were a big part of my life even bigger then jeanne was, u kno if u r having a hard time u can call me day or night and i will talk to u that will never change i kno a lot with me has changed but what happend to us was a life altering thing for me, i donno maybe this will bring out the old me that u kno and love i donnoi guess iam trying to say is i donno how much u really need me but iam here, to be honisted i dont really have the stenght to fight it anymore iam emosunly drande i have got nothing left so i hope this will work. Current mood:  exhausted
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Sunday, July 29, 20075:57PM - i need to leavei have the saddis excuse for friends they never want to hang out they tell me that we r going to hang out and then they just dont call me back. I FUCKING HATE THAT SHIT! the least u could do is fucking call me and say hey dude i dont feel like hangin out tonight but no insted u call me like a week later and say oh i didnt feel like calling u...and u yes u yr suppsed to be my best friend or so u say iam so sick and tired of hiring the girlfriend excese u r a big dissapointment to me we havnt hung out in like 2-3 mouths cuz its always the girl its always i have to take care of her shes a grown ass woman u do the math, also if it werent for me u wouldnt even have friends in this state and this is how u thank me u know when u went to collige i knew u were going to change a lil bit but i didnt think u were going to change this much its kinda sad, it brakes my heart but everyones been doing that to me latly. Current mood:  depressedSaturday, May 19, 20071:01PM - i can dish it out but i cant take itwell things r panning out right now i have been looing at some places in arazona the cost of living there is cheap, some people r still not happy that i want to move but that is just the way it is...i mean there is still a chanse that it could fall though but eather way iam moving out by like mid summer iam not really moving in with somone i just want to have my own little pad Current mood: content
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Saturday, May 12, 200712:21PM - thank god its overso this is how things r... Current mood: happy
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Monday, April 2, 200712:28AMiam so excided my gun is almost done and its going to be so sweet, this is going to be a tight season...the first practis is in a cupple weeks and that makes me happey cuz that means that summer is almost here. Current mood: content
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Sunday, February 25, 20076:40PMtoday just feels kind of wired.... Current mood:  confused
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Saturday, July 1, 20067:01PMI’ll be your distraction Current mood: exhausted
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Wednesday, June 21, 20065:21PMlet me tell u somthing no one hates u the only opineon that should matter in this is yrs and mine reameber when all that shit was going to with us and yr family and u would always ask me if i was going to break up with u cuz of all of that...what did i tell u every time "NO" i judt delt with it cuz i loved u and i cared about u so much. dont u care about me? this is not me u and them this is me and u this will all blow over my family still loves my mom said said that she missis u but if u cared that much about me u wouldnt care what anyone said but i cant help u on this this is all up to u. Current mood: scared
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Monday, June 12, 20067:32AMif i asked u to... Current mood: confused
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Wednesday, January 25, 20068:10PM - 13 signs of your soulmate13. When your on the phone with them late at night and they hang up but you miss them already when it was just five minutes ago... Current mood: annoyedCurrent music: goldfinger-99 red bollons
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Thursday, October 27, 200511:58PM - if i only what to say and when to say itwork is really hecktic rite now, iam not even in the roch anymore i got sent to grandblank...its fuckin sweet up there but the drive is like an hr witch sux, but i like it its really layed back...the people r kinda crazy but nice, it hillbilly vill at its best. Current mood:  stressed
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Tuesday, October 18, 20056:44PM - iam a mess with out youi dont kno really what to say...iam sorry, iam not going to make exscuses cuz i have none iam sure u had a good reason for leavin. this is the only way that i can think to talk to u cuz iam terrafied to call u or talk to u in that fact i hope u will talk to me so i can aploageze to u cuz somone has to say sorry so it will be me cuz its my fult. Current mood:  drunkCurrent music: to drunk to work the stareo
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Saturday, October 15, 20055:34PMso yea i was takin mt bor donwton, he always knos when iam fusterated so he limke dude whats worng i tryed to play it off like it was nothin cuz i always just hide my feelingds i donno i just shut people out all the time cuz its just easyer that way....but anyways he was like is it steggels i was just like its nothin and he just like it is whats goin on, so i told him i was like i donno i just bothers me that she want to go hang out with a guy that she hooked up with yea iam not going to tell her no but i mean come on wouldnt u get mad if i was hangin out with my x-gf all the time but i donno shit like that may not piss u off,i mean dont get me worng iam not mad got pissed it just bothers me a little. i never ask to hang out cuz yr always busy so i figer that u will just tell me when u want to hang out...but i donno.i feel like we r just kind of playin some kind of game here (iam a lil too old for games) i just want a gf thats itone that want to be around my somtime and wants to do things togeter...i dont say anything cuz i really dont want to fuck this yr i big girl u can handle yrself. Current mood: down
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Friday, June 17, 200511:11PM - fuck yea iam shit facedso yea iam just chillin ay koeppens house....(they were out smokein, i quit so i had to say no fuck) so iam just gettin drunk doin jager bonms hell yea Current mood: drunk
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Sunday, June 12, 20051:10AMi went out with a girl tonite for the first time in 8 or9 months(dont really no how long its been kinda lost track). her name is julie...great girl. we went to chilliys had some dinner (but i didnt eat every much i was really nervus....i always get like that around beautiful woman tho)then we went and saw the lords of dog town great movie...the whole time i wanted to put my arm around her but at the same time i really didnt want to mess this up....cuz to tell u the truth i really like this girl but she did give me a hug hell yea!!!! then after i went to b's with chirs chilled for a bit and now iam going to bed cuz bein a nirvus reck all nite wore me the fuck out. Current mood:  flirty
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